Writing is My Superpower, but I Treat It like Kryptonite

Personal Drama Impedes My Progress

As I write this piece, it marks the fifth essay I’m posting today on Medium. That’s the most essays I’ve written on the platform in quite a while. Medium is a great place to write and have your writing read by thousands, perhaps even millions. But if you’re not writing and posting, your audience will go elsewhere.

The pressure to write is always on me. I think about it every day. I was in New York last week for New York Fashion Week. It was my first time going to the Big Apple for NYFW events. I was full of excitement and fear. I almost didn’t go at all, doubting myself up to the day before my trip. But once I confirmed some activities in NYC, I pushed my fear aside and headed out on the Peter Pan bus.

It was the best decision I could have made for my writing career. I want to write about fashion and travel. I enjoy both and want to make a name for myself in those areas. However, I often get in my own way when it comes to getting things down. I have to commit money to something before I set out to do it (as I did when I booked my hotel in NYC). I don’t like to waste money (and I have too many times to count), so I had to fight my fear to get to NYFW.

The reason it’s a struggle for me is because of the personal drama going on currently in my life. For one, instead of starting a new school year at my current school, I’m on paid administrative leave. I had to get my belongings out of the classroom a few…